Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Many different thoughts surfaced today.. during lecture, while walking.. etc..
I think if there's a god, he's just being selfish... Really. He's one of the nicest guy around. I mean it. God is selfish and want him all to himself... Maybe he needs nice souls around him so he will remain being a good god. But, that is unfair. He forgot to think about the rest being left behind..
I feel wrong/regretful that i wont be able to attend this last gathering with him around. Does not matter that he wont be laughing with us this time.. but... i shld be there.
but then again, I am ashamed that I actually felt somehow relieved that i wont have to be there. I don't think i'll be able to take the atmosphere.. its too heavy.
I really cant remember the last time we chat... was it on my birthday party, one month b4 i leave? or was it at the airport when both our mummys are going South Africa... They kept telling us we'll have lotsa chance it the future.. maybe he is going there now already...
A day before my party, he was like the rest of the grumbling guys, msging me and asking if its alright if he dont wear pink.. I told him to try wear lar.. if not wear something that looks like pink! He put on maroon..
At the party, he came up to me and ask which groups of frens are from where one.. i pointed out to him my sec clique, jc and uni ones.. He laugh and said.. "wha.. so many lo!".. then i ask him.. " got aim any gals or not! I help u!" he laugh and said again.. " all older than me one"... we laugh and i told him to wait when he get into uni to get one!
Then he will at random occasions talk bout how uni life would be like... I keep saying.. " must must must stay hall! join lotsa cca!".. he's always beaming and asking more.. He shld go uni next year.
I'm dreading to go back in Jan... It will only be weeks before its chinese new year. I know i'm thinking too far... but, i cant help but wonder what the next cny will be like. Was it 3 years ago? that we started having this tradition of cousin karaoke on the 2nd day of CNY... we'll leave our uncle's house and head to sing till morning.. b4 heading home.. and drag ourselves out of bed to carry on with 3rd day of visiting... thn we'll all look tired at another uncle's house.. All the 3 days of visiting are always done with them..
Someone ask me if i am close to him? ... I wouldnt say we meet every week... probably more of a once a month.. thn i consider again and realise, actually he and his brother are probably our closest cousins... they would come over our house to watch soccer while we are playing our computer in our room.. or to just come to have dinner with us.. it seem pretty much just like a family..
during family outings /gathering or at some functions we just have to attend, my siblings and i will always stick to both of them.. power in unity, trying to entertain ourselves...
my brother told me he's actually one of the only 2 cousins that he like to speak with..
I really cant imagine what is going to happen next. Are we all going to pretend and act happy when we are all sad deep down inside at all the gatherings? Are there still going to be gatherings since it will probably be too obvious he wont be there and too painful for all to bear?
I regret clearing my computer for more spaces before coming over for exchange. There's one picture of him lookin all red in the face after a bit of alcohol. Its really quite funny.
I feel sorry for my aunti. I cant even begin to imagine the pain she is feeling... Why is life so unfair to her?
I search through my computer and finally found this pic. One of the dinner we have to attend. yea! that's how we entertain ourselves..Its only up till today that i realise... I dont have much family photos in my computer.. That shld change..
Im not going to say i hope things will be fine for my aunt and his brother. I know its not going to be. I just hope they can go thr it... i don't know how...
but...
what i'm really hopping for .. is that this did not happen... ( i know its a stupid hope..).. but i'll do anything for this to just be a bad bad dream.. that i will wake up and forget tomolo.
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I'm leaving for portugal + spain 2molo. The trip i've been lookin forward to but i really dont feel like going tomolo..
I'm grateful for my bunch of cute and funny Xchange mates who always say funny stuff that let me forget about what happened temporarily. TY and L are good distractions.
Of coz.. thankful to hub2 for letting me to slp in his room alone while he go to his classes. I need some time alone.
well.. yeP!. portugal and spain 2molo!.
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I dont think i'll be blogging about my 1 week trip.. maybe, maybe not... Farah's blog--> cleofrost.blogspot.com... anli's blog--> cal_86.blogspot.com... angie's --> sidebar "angeline"... read their blogs for all the entries.
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I'll exchange all the fun + trips + everything if it can bring him back.
I see you turning back at 6:21 AM
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
what's with the "expressing gratitude" for the help and the mentioning of what C130 Hercules aircraft.. as if they are really sadden by what happen.. its not even their family members.. this news will probably be over b4 we even know it...
yah.. they are really so "sad". i believe... all the fake ppl crying fake tears..
thanks to the media as well for rubbish reporting. from what i know from brother... 8 years of experience each?...seriously... f* off.
I see you turning back at 4:19 AM
Monday, November 26, 2007
I've decided to make major changes to my 3 weeks break. Regardless.
I'll be in UK @ cousy house from 24th to spend xmas!!
I think its high time for some family gathering
I see you turning back at 10:20 PM
Sunday, November 25, 2007
I am back!! from the 1 week hols!!
( side track: I had a terrible dream last night! i dreamt that i was back in singapore @ Changi Airport!! please dont tell me its happening!!)
anyways!! I like there's like 100000000000 photos taken during the trip!! so shall blog many many different entries on the trip!!
14/11/07
In the morning, me and anli has an important lesson that we cant skip! coz it concern the country of the project that is 100% of our grade!!We went to the classs that ends at 12pm and rush to the bus station!! our bus was due to arrive at 1230! how cool can we be!! haha
we are taking easyjet!! We've really become pro at planning trips!! All the cheap airlines, buses, trains + good timing!! haha.. u wan cheap grad trips?! --> call me and i can help u plan.. FOR A FEE!! whaha..
This trip is plan by... yours truely.. ME! haha.. although there were a couple of hipcups ( which i shall elaborate on in later entries).. But its quite a successful one i should say! hehee.. *proud*
Kripsy creme donut!! I'm loving IT!!
our 1st easyjet flight!
beautiful nightview from the plane
reach zurich, switzerland!!
streets of zurich..ee..er xin hor!!
nice Xmas feeling!! from early nov, everywhere has the xmas feeling!! love it!!
our 1st snow!! yeah!!!
okok! im going to skip one place tat we went to and straight to... SKI!!! yeah!! My fav highlight of the trip!!!
going down this slope on my 1st attempt was disastrous!! but superly fun!! i think it was an intermediate slope coz the beginner's slope was close.. and.. i just gotta try it!!
its always funny when me and anli think back about it! coz its our 1st try whereas farah and angie has ski before already!
so.. we didnt know how to stop when going down.. the whole place is like pros! and v v v quiet! but the serene place is always being destroyed by me and anli's scream!! whha.. Once we just went down.. not caring about anything le.. we screaammmmm.... and fell!! one guy came over and told me.." you should have stop on this steep slope" and i tell him " i dunno how to stop, its my 1st time skiing.. and he was like... " you mean you dun even have an instructor?" thn i was like.. "haha.. yah~" super funny lar!! 
nice place!!
okay.. i just receive a terrible news.. shall blog again when i have the mood
I see you turning back at 6:42 PM
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
yeah!!! Currently in czech republic!!!
went to switzerland to ski !!! and its sUPER DUPER FUN!!! i fell so much i have blue black on my hands and butt now!!! haha .. but its totally worth it!!
there's this sky diving thing in czech republic that cost onli S$300!!! should i go try 2molo?!! i dunno if im daring enuff!! i dun think so..hahha...
will be off to germany in 2 days!! till then....
(no pics for now!! coz the stupid me forgot to bring the cable to load all pics to the laptop)
tataa!!!!
I see you turning back at 4:03 AM
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
Happy 21st Birthday An Li!!!
haha.. its damn funny coz we were trying hard the whole day to pretend we dun care bout her bdae!! haha.. but i guess, we were not v good at acting as well.. haha
an li looking half surprise + happY!!
while i'm bz lighting the candles.. ( its damn off, coz none of us smoke so we need to use the stove to get the fire!! but thn.. an li's in the kitchen!! so cannot present her the cake with the candles lighted!! quite off right!! hahaa)... an li looking at her present!!
and tata!! its a leg warmer!! its getting cold now! plus we are going switzerland 2molo which is snowing!! she can use it! yeah!!
Cheers to our Xchange and frenship!! Hope we'll continue to be close even after xchange!! ( maybe we really are able to stay in UK?! hehee... )
individual pic with the bdae gal!!
and we got daniel, the german guy to help us take this pic!! but huH! WHY WE never ask an li take with him!! wasted larrrr..!!! tat guy is like really quite shuai! whaha..
then we also presented an li with her other presents.. salads + grapes!! whaha.. coz farah say she love them! whaha.. variety of present hor! hehez.. so while we were eating the cupcakes and grapes! ( whahaa... yah! we eat her present!! whaha)... i went to take...
tata!!! Harrods paddington bear!!! So cute right!!!
tata!! hope you like your present gal! Enjoy your bdae 2molo @ switzerland oh!! ( so cool lar! where got ppl spend real bdae @ switz and snow one! hehe.. =)))
I see you turning back at 7:58 AM
Its 10 weeks left to going back spore! No! I didnt want to remember / calculate it.. BUT.. haha.. was calculating the number of weeks left and how many weeks will be spent on travelling.. Tats why the calculation of weeks..
Its exactly 10 weeks left!!! ARGGGG... with.. 6 weeks on travelling! *SMILE*.. 1 week on exam *frown* and 3 weeks of lesson *sian*... Farah, me and anli are all so reluctant to go back!! NOOO! dun wan!! and we are thinking of like 101 ways to stay here..
-> can we transfer uni? haha.. dun think so
-> can we just refuse?
Like what Farah says.. " the thought of going back is depressing".. *sob*
This week is our numerous coursework hand in week! One portfolio of 3 Audit essays just handed in, and one biz strategy coursework yesterday...
sophisticated scanning machine..
Form to let tutor write ur strength and weaknesses.. Some feedback at least!!
this is how the sky looks like @ 5pm!!
me and farah! look so ghostly with e lights on our faces..
innovation, creativity and professionalism? Innovate creative ways for me to stay in england yet still be in this professional profession? haha.. I'm crapping!
after our school @ 5pm! wha! looks like 10pm hor!!
Last night was.. Hmm?!! we were chatting while having dinner and angeline was like saying how her parents always ask her to study and i think its damn weird! coz my parents dun do that.. they always ask me to go eat ice cream with thm! haha.. And i kept saying... "tat's damn weird lar" and alot of other things that i think is weird.. like.. her family apportion out the share of food while my family, we have all the food on the table and you just take whatever you want. and so i say again.. "tats damn weird lar!"...
then she say..." it doesnt mean that what i'm normally being exposed to is different from you and tat is considered weird!".. which i think! WHA! tats damn true lar! hah..
Its kinda like, i dont know where i read this b4, about how when you are in another country that is of the opposite hand drive as your own country and you think.. " why are they driving in the WRONG direction?!" i think the same theory applies here
afterall, maybe its just like, she tihnks i'm weird and i think she's weird kinda thing! haha.. And anyways, i guess its not so weird also lar.. coz from the other 2 i realised we have the same percentage! Anli's parents' are like mine who dont even know all our NTU results.. or anything about our sch for that matter.. whereas farah's saying like.. her parents also always ask her to go study! haha..
2molo! Trip to switzerland--> czech republic-->Germany for 12 days! yeah!
shall blog again later...
I see you turning back at 1:43 AM
Sunday, November 11, 2007
Lionel's in London~ haha.. to watch a match and came over to stay at my hall!
He reached yesterday and me and farah wanted to go shopping and the guys wanted to go C.London and so we all went C.London together!!
haha..
sorry i look damn cui! coz i just wake up! and i am damn fat as well! whaha.. OPS! anyways! krispyKreme again! YUmZ!!
lionel making his bed that is damn big and looks really comfy!! even more comfortable than mine lor!!
mini-topaz gathering! yeah!
bye bye!
I see you turning back at 6:32 PM
Thursday, November 08, 2007
Its 330am now. And i'm awake.. typing.. ( in a half blur mood)
Last night!
one of our housemate fainted and hit his head pretty badly against the door... with blood on his face.. Shocked all of us.. Anyways.. the medic came and say he should be fine but need to be looked after the whole night!
so... tata~ me and angeline went to slp from 12am to 3am.. while kelvin and dino look after him/checked on him... and now its swop over time!!..
Anyways.. hope he will be fine!!
shall use this time now to complete my stupid audit essay! arggg..
I see you turning back at 11:24 AM
Wednesday, November 07, 2007
Deer right infront of me! feels so Xmas to see reindeer! haha..
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Having a Picnic!! Its on a little hill right in the middle of all the animals!! haha.. SO COOL RIGHT!! I love picnics!!
moo~~ ha.. scratching itself against the wood
moo cross the railway
camel walking towards us so that..
he can pose for me! whaha.. All the animals seemed to be in a good mood and all came out to pose for us!!
Ann was like telling us this zoo is associated with the zoo in C. London and this is like their holiday resort to come and rest, have a big space to room around and fresh air to breath!!
Rhino! Looks as if its wearing some amour clothes!
me and goat!! hehe.. I'm amazed i dare to touch it! normally i dun dare to touch animals one! but this goat looks so cutttieee..
Piggy saying hello!!
picnic again!! nicey salmon sandwiches!
Last pic of the animals!! can u see the baby elephant?! hehe.. its on the rock whereas the mummy is on the grass! Its so small right!!
On the way home.. The perfect scenery!!
Love the view! Can i stay in this kinda place also?! hha..
Yeah! and the reason i'm bloggin at this time is coz... I've skipped class today! whaha... I'm soooo tired lar!! Lack of slp compounded from HostUK till yesterday! ..
and so! I'm determined to not wake up till 12pm this afternoon! yeah! Some police came over and wanna do "property marking" at 11plus am.. he seemed shocked to see me slping.. haha
and yeah! I forgot to mention.. me and angeline was gossiping when we were at the host house.. and we chat about everything! haha.. Now i know she really thinks im impatient! whaha.. But its quite funny coz she say normally she is the fast one in spore... and she have to nag at ppl to be faster.. but here im the one keep asking her to be faster.. OKOK! I think I will be less impatient when i get back to spore!! Trying hard to do that now! yeah!
BYE BYE!
I see you turning back at 8:02 PM
HostUK part II.
Our host brought us to the zoo!! and I love ZOO!! saw my dearest fren elephant there as well! haha
Big Bear!! right infront of me!! wha! so flurry!! i wanna hug!!
albino kangaroo!
rooming animals.. i dunno wat's tat lar~
Penguins!! so cute!! so unlike in spore.. they are not in cages lor!! so cute!!!
this penguin got whiskers! just like the one in madagascar! so cute!!
hippo!!
Brian and the hippo!
zebra deep in thoughts!
lions sleeping!!
Deers crossing the road! so cute!! okok time to bath and do my work!
We are going to Switzerland + germany + czech republic next week! yeah! so this week have to... finish my Audit portfolio tat is 40% of my marks! AHHHHH... thn have to finish one project! SHIT! work work work!!
Anyways.. I haven hao lian bout my latest logic test result.. I SCORED FULL MARKS! wow! Haven score full marks for so long leeee.... yeah!!! in uni can score full marks oh! me and angie so happy! yeah!
I see you turning back at 2:18 AM
