Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Stress building up once again. Its time of the year! EXAM ARE COMING!! REPORTS hand in dates are all squeeze together. quiz and presentation. ARG~!!!!
Let's see..
thursday i have class from 1030am till 430pm. After which AA202 project meeting. 6pm-IIC meeting. 7pm AC213 meeting.
Fri- AC213 meeting.
of which...
AA201 project i have to compile
AA202 project i have to send my part consolidated with dave's and to alvin by tonight
AC213 project- to try out fact ( software) and get those transactions from mum.
I have to do all this today! TODAY!!! ahhhhhh... ( may god bless me).
Project hand in dates:
Next tues: AA202
Next fri: AA201
Next next monday: AC213
Next next thursday: AA305 quiz
and then.. next next next week is my final examination!!! Tell me how should i plan my time to study with all the projects?!!! ( okay. i admit. i have poor time management skills.. coz im still blogging now).
But the point you see.. is that.. most of these are projects! Meaning.. we have to do them together with others. and this also mean.. we have to put in our utmost effort! ( becoz.. if we dun.. we are not only killing ourselves.. we are killing others!!!)... which i dun intend to.. although the movie deathnote is nice.. ( he kills by writting. i kill by not doing my part for proj? no way).
But but.. another thing is .. mum is going overseas later at night. Yesh. She've booked the tix already. I so want to go.. just to escape from the work.. ( how irresponsible right?) but i cant! due to proJs! if not for projs.. i'll probably go! hehee..
and this leads one to think:
Remember all the reponsibility you have now. That you owe to others and not only yourself. But, if one is to disappear from the world suddenly, the world will still goes on as it is. Wont stop becoz u disappear. and this makes u think... are these "responsibilities" in the 1st place really that important?
Like a fren who told me once..
" In a relationship now, it is not just between the couple. It involves the whole family as well. the responsibility you have to face"
then i think of my aunti.. who passed away when i was in sec 2.
She's a really nice lady.. my fav aunti i would say. Did she have plans as to what to do the next morning? the morning that she passed away. Does she feels guilty now that the plan did not materialise? Are there promises she made? that she didnt manage to carry it out coz she have.. unexpectedly, to herself also.. that she would not be in this world anymore? Does anyone blame her for that?
Which is like.. maybe... all the responsibilites we are facing now are not really that important as we might think it is. Becoz if one happen to leave this world suddenly, nothing will happen. ( maybe its the fact of between choosing if u wan to do it or that.. u dont do it becoz u have no choice)... whatever it is...
erm nope.. if u are thinkin im thinkin of killin myself? erm.. who is so stupid to lar.. just coz of the work? I'm thinking of on the path of..--> maybe all these works are really not that important! ( self deceiving again..) haha..
tata~ and so.. here goes! time to get on with some work! =)
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