---> 7th jan and i've use one day of my unhappy day!!! out of the 5 days i give myself to be unhappy this year... pretty fast.. one day being used!!
well.. not exactly unhappy the whole day.... juz one part... that is.. having to wait for ppl.. yep..
i hate having to wait for ppl when they are late!! i mean HATE!!!!!
wake up to a msg that change the original time of 12pm to 1pm.. that is good.. for i dun have to rush.. but i set on my alarm clock at a super early time to wake up.. but this is still okayz.. coz im still at home..
and my house.. being far from woodlands.. i decided to be early rather then late.. so left home at 12pm! .. great.. and i receive a msg that change the time to 1.2opm! ( i reach woodlands at 1245 man!) and i waited.. feeling pissed already.. for the change of time so suddenly.. when its quite obvious i would've left my house already since i stay so far!!
well.. the worst part is... they were no where in sight at 1.20... i dunno.. but i juz cant put a smile.. or to chat to thm when they arrive.. its the angry feeling that i think i would not want to hide..~~ ( and actually i do know she's feeling pissed y im showing such a black face.. but.. well try to put urself in my shoe...and if i can still smile. i tink.. that's really faking already..)
but i might as well have realised.. that ... even if im not in the grp.. its still very okayz.. and i know my existence means nothing to the grp.. really...! i know it! but im trying to make an effort.. and its.. alot of effort... but sometimes.. its so disappointing.. that i had so many reasons for not going to outings.. outings that will not make me happy at all.. well..
this is not the 1st time i need to wait this long... it had happened so many times.. i lost count..
sometimes i dun understand y ppl would wan to be late.. if i know im going to b late... i would take a cab lo! unless of coz im sure that other person will be late too.. but.. dun u find it very very SUPERLY RUDE to be late???!!!
ur time might not be precious.. but my time sure is! i dun know.. but .. that was the super pissed part!!
and i think .. this entry.. would very well juz make some very pissed with me.. or even hate me.. or even.. think y she is making such a big fuss over such a small matter..... and even decide future outings i should not be included.. mayb..
but.. its juz disappointing... once and again...
(sometimes.. i know u all will be late.. but i juz dun dare to be late.. for i know how "unimportant" i am in this grp and i might juz b forgotten if i reach late and everyone has left.. well.. disappointment i cant describe... : >)
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on the bright side.. haha... i ps the jc frens!! so sorry!! haha.. i wanted to do my cca stuff in the afternoon one! but.. haha... so gotta do at night so cant meet.. hehe... oops
anyway~ i juz dyed my hair!! it look.. i dunno.. not very pretty?? mayb.. oops.. hope it'll gradually b like the kind i like..
night ppl! i need to start on my tutorials!
i still have trainin 2molo... sunday!! how pathetic = (
